The Falsehood of the Memoir as Narcissism Trope: An Epistolary Essay

Georgia NeSmith
49 min readApr 15, 2018
A self portrait drawing using Crayola markers.

Preface

This essay was written as part of one of the nine or so drafts of a letter I wrote to a friend of mine with whom I had just had a terrible, relationship-threatening (and eventually, relationship-ending) argument. I wanted to explain to her how she did not have to be as helpless as she had become over the years due to her depression, anxiety, and other disabilities. But my pointing that out was seen as unacceptable, unfair criticism.

I knew it would probably not be appreciated. But I had become extraordinarily frustrated with her as her health declined but she kept up with habits that contributed to her poor emotional and physical health, and her connection to the extraordinary scholar she had been — but had mostly walked away from after her tenure track contract was not renewed.

She mostly pulled away from the intellectual world that had been the territory we together had proudly walked once upon a time. I can’t say I didn’t see parallels between her choices and mine, and I know depression is a tough monkey to get off your back. But, despite several actual WINS in her life (which often I didn’t learn about till long after), pretty much all our interactions dealt with me trying to help her pick up the pieces. For 30 years I stuck by her. But finally I could not…

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Georgia NeSmith
Georgia NeSmith

Written by Georgia NeSmith

Retired professor, feminist, writer, photographer, activist, grandmother of 5, overall Wise Woman. Phd UIA School of Journalism & Mass Communication, 1994.

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